Self Reflection: What I want to do in the future?

Source: Author's Illustration

Hello readers,

Im Back!!! On this blog post I will share about my self reflection.

These past few months I’ve been working on lots of projects and submission. I’ve developed lots of skills such as directing, photography, and photoshop. Im proud that I’ve learned and improved lots of things on this couples of months.

*I never expected I can develop this much skills in this short time*

I worked really hard, I tried to do my best, but I’m not sure why I keep telling myself that Im not doing enough.

*I need to improve this mindset* bzzz

Ok Moving on, about my future.

“What I want to do in the future?” That a one questions that I kept repeating in my mind.

I don’t know my future.

I can’t think.

Im stuck.

One thing that I know is I want to do something in the fashion or beauty. I want to create fun project, fashion show, and lots of program in the fashion industry. Styling will be in the second choice, and the third one will be working in the office under marketing and social media marketing.

Why my first choice is to be a project manager?

I love challenge, and I being a project manager will challenge me to be a good marketer and a manager. There will be lots of unexpected things that can happens, and in that kind of situation you need to be able to think fast and made a decisions, I feel that kind of job will be less boring compared with working in the office.

Other reason is because I feel every time I’m Working on a project I never felt that I’m “Working”, and the satisfaction feeling when you done it and make your client proud is just irreplaceable feelings.

What is the problem?

I tried to find an internship and work opportunities in Singapore but it seems none of them are available. It’s just getting harder to find a job in Singapore. The reasons are high cost, to create a good campaign or project the company need to have lots of money, which most of the Singapore company doesn’t really have budget for that. Prioritise the local, they only prioritise the local and it’s quite hard to get a working pass in Singapore.

These reality also made me realise something, what if I know what I want, I know my passion, but there is no place that can accept me? What if Im not doing enough? Should I continue my studies? Should I move out? To which country? Am I gonna survive?.

There are lots of questions.

I’m not sure where my path is. But I will try really hard to find a job in Singapore. If it seems dull, maybe I will try to explore more in arts and fashion in other country. I still have long time to go, I guess I will just take my time, and let’s see where the universe want to take me.

Agatha.

See you on my next blog!